My family and I have been living with Autism now for about three and a half years. Ethan is not what I would consider to be severely Autistic but his behaviour can be very frustrating at times (especially for me). Occasionally I will add to this page to write down my thoughts about his condition. One of my main concerns is fear. My fear. What will happen when he's older? Who will look after him once I'm gone? Will he ever be able to look after himself? Will he be bullied at school? Will he find friendship or better still, love? At the moment Gill (my wife his mother) is his best friend. When we recently went to his parents evening they told us he had two friends.......Ben & Declan......If we had been in slightly more comfortable surroundings we may just have cried.
Imagine having all your expectations erased in one moment and at the same time having no idea what Autism actually meant.
I dream of conversations about Manchester City, Cars, Planes, Motorbikes, Dinosaurs, how his day at school was.....All the things I expected to discuss with my son as he grew up. I'm waiting.....waiting patiently for that day to arrive. It will I know it and when it does my heart may well burst with joy. I don't care if my first conversation with him is about filling in Tax Return Forms! To know we're connecting will be enough.
